Pure

Having a pure heart doesn't always brings you unique love. For me it makes me suffer everyday. Worrying about someone that doesn't deserves it's one of the worst feelings you can ever have. I wouldn't make even my worst enemies feel this pain that I feel everyday.
I alway's knew that I was one of the good guy's, but to be this good? it makes me sick sometimes...
No one should ever be this good...
To all you true lovers out there, that fight for love everyday, enduring the problems of a relationship because in the end what matters is the love that you feel for the one you love, keep fighting don't give up because unfortunately that are not many of us left that still fight for true love.
Why do some of us think that happiness comes from the number of girls you get laid with every week/month/year/lifetime.
I don't get it.
Sure,
It's pleasing to have sex with many different sex partners but that's a goal that i don't wish to accomplish.
At least for me that already has felt true love underneath every cell of my body.
And that unfortunately has also felt true pain, misery, and suffering from the same true love once born.
I just want it all to go aways, the pain, the sadness, the anger, the rage, the compassion, the love.
And honestly from the bottom of my heart i hope this is not a "full stop" but a "comma" that our history still has a lot of tales to tell to everyone of our dear friends that worry with the both of us, and that know that what you doing is stupid and that you will probably regret it.
That you don't deserve this feeling, and that you will regret not taking your chance.
Even if i screamed your name, and tell you that you need to grow up so but so fucking much you wouldn't listen. I grew so much in the past week's I can feel it beneath my chest, I learned my lesson the problm is that you diddint learned your's you just skipped a lot of important pages of the book called "Life" and whithout reading those pages, you will never, ever understand what went wrong. I truly loved you, love you and yes will always, ALWAYS have that fucking special care, that i wont have for anyone else. A lot of girls may come across my life, a lot of wounderfull girls way prettier, way smarter, way better but the special one like "mourinho" will aways be you.
Learn to move on by yourself.
Not with the supposed "help" of someone your trying to give your heart for him to fix it.
Everyone know's that the best of you, was seen when you were with me, make me proud girl.
And once you understood all of this you will know, that once again...
Like in around 60 per cent of the important subjects. I was right.
Again.

Weekend

My weekend was all about these guy's they're songs are simply blastering :).
My birthday is coming up, and I bet a special someone wont even have the gut's to wish me a happy birthday it's so ridiculous and so predictable at the same time, that I dont even know how it makes me feel.

1st

Yay my 1st post! lol 6 am already, lets leave the writing for later.